Hi. lama tak bersua. kan blog. kali ni aku nak twist kan sikit blog aku. bair lah. aku roang melayu. aku nak cakap melayu.
kalau kau tolong seorang tu. kau tak pernah berhenti berharap kat dia.
kenapa eh? kenapa orang tu susah sanga nak sedar?
memang ade manusia jenis lurus bendul macam tu.
tolonglah. aku sentiasa kat sini kau tak sedar
ye aku tahu
I may not be the perfect man. I may be just a fat young man who annoys everyone
bermusuh dengan semua
ye aku mengaku. aku ni bukan the perfect muslim
they perfect guy idaman fantasi kau.
tapi a bit of affection orang bagi kau pun.
kau tak sedar langsung ke.
kang aku cakap kau tak sedar dek untung. kau melenting.
ye. kalau aku takde dalam hidup kau.
mana ade perubahan
mungkin lebih baik kan. mungkin kau lebih happy.
aku ingat lagi. kau ostracize aku. kau buat aku amcam aku ni tak wujud
we were strangers with memories.
KAU TAK SEDAR2 LAGI KE?
aku sayang kau. aku kalau boleh nak sentiasa ade untuk kau. time kau senang.
time kau susah
aku tak pernah percaya dengan faham america bangkai yang dipanggil friendzone.
aku tek pernah berhenti berharap pun.
wlau sedikit
tolonglah denga jeritan dalaman aku ni.
hm malang sekali kan. kalau aku tulisan cantik. memang aku buat diary dah,
menag bsah jatuh titisan air mata kat kertas tu.
bodoh kan. menangis. tapi bukan orang kau tangiskan tu tahu.
banyak kali dah gitu. takpelah.
macam aku cakap. jangan lah please.
sampai satu masa. aku lupakan kau amsa kau perlu aku,
jangan kau menangis sebab aku takde. kau yang mintak .
kau yang paksa aku begini.
aku takkan cakap ape2 selagi. aku tak berpisah dgn kau. aku tak mampu.
aku tak berani. aku bukan mana2 casanova yang mampu mengayat mana2 perempuan aku mahu.
aku ni pengecut. menanti dan terus menanti.
akhir kata aku kepada kau.
Please hear me out, I'm officially missing you. Salam Sayang,- The Hopeful Skeptic.
PS: Mind The Photo Ok. It's Just An Illustration. :D
HEy There Bloggers, Just Wanted To Drop By Saying Hi.
Well, Anyways. i got something to share here.ever heard of anime or japanese animation?well, i have a special anime that i have fell in love since i was in my high school days...The Anime Titled; Honey And Clover is a about a college student,Yuuta Takemoto. He goes into an Art College and he goest trough a lot of conflict while graduating.The best part of this Anime is that the quotes offered by the anime itself. Here is a collection of the quotes;
◦But I realized why I was lost... It's not because I don't have a map... It's because I don't have a destination...
Takemoto Yuuta (Honey and Clover)
◦When I was little, I didn't understand why ferris wheels existed.
They were just sluggish and went up high. I got bored with it after only one ride.
The roller coaster and the loop slider... I only paid attention to the thrilling rides.
But... I kind of understand now. Ferris wheels are for slowly cutting across the sky with the person you like and maybe saying things like, "Isn't this a little scary?".
(Honey and Clover)
◦I'd been wondering whether there is a meaning to a failed love... Is something that disappeared the same as something that never existed? But now I now there is---There was a meaning right here.. Because despite the heartbreak, i'm still glad that i fell in love with you.
Takemoto Yuta (Honey and Clover
"...when I was little...I was out riding my brand-new blue bicycle...when I decided to see how far I could keep going...without looking back even once.
I could feel with my back how my neighborhood was receding...further and further away...but I kept pedaling with all my might, my mind almost going blank. All I could hear was the sound of my own heart...thumping wildly in my ears. Even now, I remember it sometimes. What exactly...was I trying to do that day? What was it...that I wanted to prove...?
...it's no good. My mind just keeps fogging over. I have this irritating sound stuck in my head. What is it? This sound... Ohh. I know what it is.
This is... the sound of emptiness."
"Christmas always used to get me down. There was something oppressive about all those twinkling colored lights.
"Are you happy?" "Do you fit in anywhere?" ....is what it felt like they were asking me."
” It’s quiet and has a nonchalant feeling. But there’s a little excitement in the air. That’s right… It’s spring.. ”
Well There You Have IT. A Collection of Quotes By The Anime. So Why Not You watch it?
Well, Anyways. i got something to share here.ever heard of anime or japanese animation?well, i have a special anime that i have fell in love since i was in my high school days...The Anime Titled; Honey And Clover is a about a college student,Yuuta Takemoto. He goes into an Art College and he goest trough a lot of conflict while graduating.The best part of this Anime is that the quotes offered by the anime itself. Here is a collection of the quotes;
◦But I realized why I was lost... It's not because I don't have a map... It's because I don't have a destination...
Takemoto Yuuta (Honey and Clover)
◦When I was little, I didn't understand why ferris wheels existed.
They were just sluggish and went up high. I got bored with it after only one ride.
The roller coaster and the loop slider... I only paid attention to the thrilling rides.
But... I kind of understand now. Ferris wheels are for slowly cutting across the sky with the person you like and maybe saying things like, "Isn't this a little scary?".
(Honey and Clover)
◦I'd been wondering whether there is a meaning to a failed love... Is something that disappeared the same as something that never existed? But now I now there is---There was a meaning right here.. Because despite the heartbreak, i'm still glad that i fell in love with you.
Takemoto Yuta (Honey and Clover
"...when I was little...I was out riding my brand-new blue bicycle...when I decided to see how far I could keep going...without looking back even once.
I could feel with my back how my neighborhood was receding...further and further away...but I kept pedaling with all my might, my mind almost going blank. All I could hear was the sound of my own heart...thumping wildly in my ears. Even now, I remember it sometimes. What exactly...was I trying to do that day? What was it...that I wanted to prove...?
...it's no good. My mind just keeps fogging over. I have this irritating sound stuck in my head. What is it? This sound... Ohh. I know what it is.
This is... the sound of emptiness."
"Christmas always used to get me down. There was something oppressive about all those twinkling colored lights.
"Are you happy?" "Do you fit in anywhere?" ....is what it felt like they were asking me."
” It’s quiet and has a nonchalant feeling. But there’s a little excitement in the air. That’s right… It’s spring.. ”
Well There You Have IT. A Collection of Quotes By The Anime. So Why Not You watch it?
Hm.. lets just say i've been busy, so i haven't had the time to write about my life here in this blog... Well, KPM changed me a lot,from the way i talk. to the way i walk, and to the way i treat people also.Why? Because Characters make the world, don't they ;)? so lets just stick to this principal.Sticks And Stones May Break My Bones, But Words Will Never Hurt Me. I have been holding on to that quotes for quite some time now... But it never let me down in my times of need, that's why i keep holding onto it.. people always say,if in a fight, if you fight back, you're just bound to be like that person... But what makes that person to fight back? is the temptation? Or is the provocation? Well that, is for you to decide.
This Post Is Dedicated to you Loser. yeah you.. no, not you, but the guy there.. yeah2 that prick.Who? Leit it just be a secret ok ;) Ciao. and oh by the way, how do i look? cool aint it? haha~
Well. Im Truly Sorry For Not Posting At All.why? I'm Busy. Ok.That's Enough,Straight To The Point. Still Remember The Last Post About My SPM results?here's the sequel of it,
Hehe.Thanks To Allah S.W.T. for granting my prayers where i could further my studies in english..it is unbearably sad that i had to leave my family and friends due to my decision.I'm sure youre wondering where did i continue my studies to.Well, It's located in Kuantan, Pahang.The College is called, MPCIM for short.or for long, Mara Professional College Indera Mahkota.
Well Life here is a swell,where i seem to find a conclusion on the concept, You Lead, You Follow, Or You Get Out Of The Way. yeah that's just the right words to say here by the concept of MPCIM.I was at first a bit sceptical continuing my studies here. but what the heck,just go for it. because it may be the only chance for me to further my study in English.(seriously,its my only chance,) so i had to go through it no matter what and here i am, in MPCIM or KPMIM,Kolej Profesional Mara Indera Mahkota.
well lets cut to the chase.Im scik im happy, and im homesick( a bit lah) but all the while i kinow that im here for a purpose. a purpose to change who i used to be. people tend to think that im a person whose very strong and cold hearted. theyre actually wrong. very2 wrong.. at MPCIM, this the place where you find your enemies, your true friends, and also your love life(more or less) but for me, i'd rather go and stab myself from the back rather than being stabbed by a friend so here we go. a journey of three exhilarating and excruciatng years to come where we will experience blood sweat and tears throughout this journey to the sucessing life.
hey im back Yeah man.. like i said. i never abandon my blog. people always say that life is short. thats what we're going to tolk tonite. i mean this morning.. going through life has many challenges.we as human beings need to adapt.if we are unable to do so.and thats where the weak get kicked down to the grund and the strong retains its post. the obstacle such as currently happenning to me now. SPM. the Dreadful,most feard.. chilling to the spine SPM.Well At 9.45 in a wednesday morning.i arrived at SMK St Thomas.Where People Gathered. Ah Lets Cut To The Chase Ok. I Got 3A's,2C's,2D's And 2G's(Add Maths And Chemistry Which I hate The Most)ahhaah well i know im stupid.im not that smart you know.and well yeah let me see where does my results bring me.SPM 2010 numbered SK234A162 ,please lead me To Glory. Amin
Hard Work That Pays Off.maybe you all are wondering about what im trying to say here.. well when you strive to achieve something,and you have the passion to it,im sure you'll achieve greatnesss,well that can really be applied by my mentor . I treat her like my own mother but in a sense that im her subordinate .. well starting 3rd january ,i worked there diligently,(you sure hadri?haha!)and got the guidance from her sincethen.. well as the days pass by, i realized that Pay Day was around the corner... i was so eager to get the pay because the it was my first pay check an well you know guys.money is particular ly a serious matter to me that is.so one day before,i saw a facebook noitification saying that tomorrow would be someone'
s birthday.. i was shocked to see its her birthday on the next day itself...me and my friend clinton decided to throw a party for her since she was so good to us right..( haha!)so clinton and i in the afternoon staright went to a bakery shop and ordered a cake..( which was funny!)we desigened the cake with a Kumon Decoration( because she's a Kumon instructorDuhh~)and they made it quite fast and that was settled.
now here comes the best part.to our surprise,kak syikin suddenly told us that she's leaving early today.i was lik 0.0! WAHT??!!!??? SHE'S LEAVING ??
???? #$%^&*&#$%^^&!!!! I WAS SO MAD AND TRIED TO FIND THE REASON FOR IT.(SHE HAD A TOASTMASTER MEETING.=.=") I tried and tried to persuade her to not to go yet she keep on asking why you want me to stay.. i just couldnt answer that.so i just agreed to her decision and followed her to the meeting instead. there i was feeling a bit devastated to the fact that i couldnt sucessfully did the party.. haih... =.= so instead... we did it the next day... then at that day it was quite hectic day .. but in the end .yeah it paid off and a sense of fulfillment could be felt by me. evryone enjoyed the party,(especially the kids). and everyone went home with happpy faces
well time flies and i forgot to say that mentor of mine is none other than my teacher and also currently my
boss,Madam Aini Hj. yusof (haha sorry if called you madam ok ;))well.. she's 3_ years old... haha i wont teall her age lah.. because she's very particular in that manner.so id like to say this to you madam Aini, If there's something that you're dreaming of then may it all come true, because you deserve it all...HAPPY BIRTHDAY.-Robert Frost
Happy Birthday Mdam Aini.May God Bless You,And Your Family Always.
ever wonder why people fall sick?its because they dont take care of them selves. we tend to over do it without thinking the cost of it to our lives.. if we, dont do anything about it. theres no way we can stop the sickness. thats what i cant achieve.i always tend to be the black sheep so most of the time.im always being scolded. but its ok. ill manage. people used to think im the cheerful one.. but the truth is. im very fragile. very2 fragile. i tend to act tough but i do break down and cry. thats why when i try and try to get back up again but i just cant.. people dont see the way i see things.thats why. i just want a normal subtle life.is that so hard to ask for.hurm....
Hurm.. its been a while since i updated this blog... a lot of memories that were carved into my mind for the year 2010,..sweet and bitter memories, most of them taught me to be a better person that i should be..but there are some unforgettable moments that i will cherish for the rest of my life..:)
ive been searching through the years.. for a true friend.. but only a few that i can fully trust and be called as friends... what is life without friends.. just try to imagine that.. it really is a tough when it comes to the fact that i have friends that i hate.. that's for the record. i tend to grow up and my nature starts to evolve.. thats why i love to pick fights.. with anyone. trust me.with anyone..hahah
December has been a very meaningful year for me because it ended my single life.The Girl,That goes by the name of Nur Diyana Aimi,who is the same age at me.. offered me to be her man by her side..I cried tears of joy that time... Alhamdulillah...God Answered My Prayers.. and i give my gratitude to Him.. Amin.
December also has been the most memorable months for me.. because we spent a lot of time together.. oh im sure youre wondering who are the "them"? theyre of course my class mates.. Friends are treasures.. and im sure people who as no friend tends to die earlier.. because they dont have the support to strive through the hardships of life and sooner or later,he or she will give up and throw the towel .just like that.
but december also has brought me bitter memories to know the truth about my self.. I was jumping in joy when i was informed that i was accepted in being one of the candidates for the National Service Or aslo called PLKN. it really wass a once in a life time oppurtunity ... but the bad news is that..
i wasnt able to join it.. due to an illness which was detected whilei was going the medical checkup for the programme... I was detected with Diabetes Mellitus,A Disease where our body was contaminatd with too much glucose and this makes your body to weak faaster..
At 2oth december,i was forced by the doctor to be admitted to the hospital due to a reading of glucose which is 24.1,(which is very high) .. and also the doctor said i could collapse anytime and die into a coma.which i never expect it would happen...
At 2oth december,i was forced by the doctor to be admitted to the hospital due to a reading of glucose which is 24.1,(which is very high) .. and also the doctor said i could collapse anytime and die into a coma.which i never expect it would happen...
well this morning.i met up with the doctor and had some chit chat.
His name was dr. George Ting , a pediatrician.. which was handling my case.. just this morning,he talked the sense right out of me to ask to change.not abruptly,but slowly...like the song goes. one step at a time.he asked me to try and imagine me as a person who lost 30 kilos.. hurm.. i wonder how would i look like in that matter...haha..well lets leave that for later.well to tell the truth, that was the first heart to heart conversation with someone.
ithink what ive written today would make up the months for my absence at this blog.. so until then .. janeee...
Love.
when we talk about love.what is love?love is a feeling of comfort when youre with a person.. we never noe when it comes and when it will leave you....thats the bad points of love,getting dump sure is a hurtful feeling. but always remember"there are many fishes in the sea". but sometimes we cant wait for love and we have to grasp it before it goes away...
there are many types of love...monkey love.love triangle.and many more. just that i dont noe whjat to call it.hahaha.so lets see..when you ask me about love.haha.. youre just making me look like a fool. ive always been in love but ive never experienced love before.. most people dont believe that because they see i always hang out with girls but the truth is,theyre just my friends.im not lying.its true. theyre just friends...idono why... i can be a matchmaker(a good one of course!)but ironically,i cant match make myself.why?i dont know.. ive tried a lot of ways but it doesnt seem to work out.. maybe god said its still not the time for me to experience love and maybe he wants me to focus on studies.... well then.. like they say...the right time will sure come....and also the malays used to say...'kalau dah jodoh tu takkan ke mana...'should be practiced always because its true,rich,poor,healthy,sick,life,death,its all determined by Allah S.W.T.Wallahualam.So Until Then.G'nite Mate!
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