Hurm Devastating.

ever wonder why people fall sick?its because they dont take care of them selves. we tend to over do it without thinking the cost of it to our lives.. if we, dont do anything about it. theres no way we can stop the sickness. thats what i cant achieve.i always tend to be the black sheep so most of the time.im always being scolded. but its ok. ill manage. people used to think im the cheerful one.. but the truth is. im very fragile. very2 fragile. i tend to act tough but i do break down and cry. thats why when i try and try to get back up again but i just cant.. people dont see the way i see things.thats why. i just want a normal subtle life.is that so hard to ask for.hurm....

A Finish Line That Sparks Into A New Beginning

Hurm.. its been a while since i updated this blog... a lot of memories that were carved into my mind for the year 2010,..sweet and bitter memories, most of them taught me to be a better person that i should be..but there are some unforgettable moments that i will cherish for the rest of my life..:)

ive been searching through the years.. for a true friend.. but only a few that i can fully trust and be called as friends... what is life without friends.. just try to imagine that.. it really is a tough when it comes to the fact that i have friends that i hate.. that's for the record. i tend to grow up and my nature starts to evolve.. thats why i love to pick fights.. with anyone. trust me.with anyone..hahah

December has been a very meaningful year for me because it ended my single life.The Girl,That goes by the name of Nur Diyana Aimi,who is the same age at me.. offered me to be her man by her side..I cried tears of joy that time... Alhamdulillah...God Answered My Prayers.. and i give my gratitude to Him.. Amin.

December also has been the most memorable months for me.. because we spent a lot of time together.. oh im sure youre wondering who are the "them"? theyre of course my class mates.. Friends are treasures.. and im sure people who as no friend tends to die earlier.. because they dont have the support to strive through the hardships of life and sooner or later,he or she will give up and throw the towel .just like that.

but december also has brought me bitter memories to know the truth about my self.. I was jumping in joy when i was informed that i was accepted in being one of the candidates for the National Service Or aslo called PLKN. it really wass a once in a life time oppurtunity ... but the bad news is that..

i wasnt able to join it.. due to an illness which was detected whilei was going the medical checkup for the programme... I was detected with Diabetes Mellitus,A Disease where our body was contaminatd with too much glucose and this makes your body to weak faaster..
At 2oth december,i was forced by the doctor to be admitted to the hospital due to a reading of glucose which is 24.1,(which is very high) .. and also the doctor said i could collapse anytime and die into a coma.which i never expect it would happen...

well this morning.i met up with the doctor and had some chit chat.

His name was dr. George Ting , a pediatrician.. which was handling my case.. just this morning,he talked the sense right out of me to ask to change.not abruptly,but slowly...like the song goes. one step at a time.he asked me to try and imagine me as a person who lost 30 kilos.. hurm.. i wonder how would i look like in that matter...haha..well lets leave that for later.well to tell the truth, that was the first heart to heart conversation with someone.

ithink what ive written today would make up the months for my absence at this blog.. so until then .. janeee...

Haha. Aishiteruyo...(I Love You.)

Love.

when we talk about love.what is love?love is a feeling of comfort when youre with a person.. we never noe when it comes and when it will leave you....thats the bad points of love,getting dump sure is a hurtful feeling. but always remember"there are many fishes in the sea". but sometimes we cant wait for love and we have to grasp it before it goes away...

there are many types of love...monkey love.love triangle.and many more. just that i dont noe whjat to call it.hahaha.so lets see..when you ask me about love.haha.. youre just making me look like a fool. ive always been in love but ive never experienced love before.. most people dont believe that because they see i always hang out with girls but the truth is,theyre just my friends.im not lying.its true. theyre just friends...idono why... i can be a matchmaker(a good one of course!)but ironically,i cant match make myself.why?i dont know.. ive tried a lot of ways but it doesnt seem to work out.. maybe god said its still not the time for me to experience love and maybe he wants me to focus on studies.... well then.. like they say...the right time will sure come....and also the malays used to say...'kalau dah jodoh tu takkan ke mana...'should be practiced always because its true,rich,poor,healthy,sick,life,death,its all determined by Allah S.W.T.Wallahualam.So Until Then.G'nite Mate!

Its Been A While.

Hallo Bloggers.. Its Been A While Since I wrote here... time really flies.. who knew im already 17 and im gonna finish school in just emm... 7 week!!!??? oh my god! 7 weeks??? im gonna miss you guys.. a lot sweet and bitter memories i have gone through and i never thought it would end this fast... i really think that i changed a lot this year...my sisters changed me inside out by scolding and guiding me through these years...I Love my sisters so much!

well,on to my topic...THE Yo-Yo. Im sure Youve Heard of it.. well,who doesnt?it a toy that has been ages played.. even people in their 80's still play this toy.. it really is intriguing to see that toy to be played from the long ages.. up to now.. it really gives us an effect that we humans can evolve but still keep its masterpiece.like they say;“Life is a yo-yo, and mankind ties knots in the string”

A New Year, A New Challenge And A New Conflict.

Hi all...its been a while since i wrote to my post...haih.. life is tough this year....But When The Going Gets Tough..The Tough Gets Going.so My New Year Resolution Is To Start A New Life,Turn Over A New Leave And Change My Attitude towards people.. Let Them Know That Im Not A Person To Be Played With.. People thinks that im someone that always smiles ut actually.. i bleed inside.. just that i dont want to show it to others...i never cry..but i do bleed inside...im dedicate this Post To My SSp.He never thinks of people's feelings..i want him to feel what i feel...

Ive Trusted him too much... i give him my trust and respect but everything was in vain... he never seem to change...i dont understand why...just because of that im going to do some thing that will make him notice.to others... let them hate me for the new me....i have to change. to izzan your word have been useless to me.. seems that the advice you've given me was also in vain... ill have to change...i cant improve.sorry izzan

im going to keep silent when he talks.let him talk alone.i dont care.im sick and tired of him.cant help it any more...let him say he's sorry or anything... but i wont forgive him no matter what.

Hah...Man It was fun...

hurmm.... its been a long time since i wrote to my blog....but then... i was so excited...its like i remembered it to happen just like yesterday....haha...My camping trip for the prefects...WHAT A BLAST....it was held at Kem Alapong Lundu.. Which took two hours by bus from Kuching...I really tell u.. its an unforgettable experience....we arrived there with smiling faces.. but its was that was the beginning...we started off...by singing the national anthem...and sailing the flag of malaysia and sarawak.. when suddenly.. one of the facilitators...suddenly screamed at me and asked "Ko Ingat Lawak Ker ?"i was standing in awe when he suddenly pointed at me...my friend also at me and also were a bit confused... and in our minds.. this is going to be an excruciating experience....then we were briefed upon our activities at the camp..then...we were divided into groups which are classified by colours... i was in the red team... which we call Team HURRICANE...Nice name right? we then were given a few task to be done A.S.A.P. and the first time in my life when i slept for only 30 minutes(My Goodness!)my eyes were bruised like a panda...just because we were showing our teamwork and dont want to let down each other hopes....but in the end .. it was done... then the worst thing is that we have to adjust ourselves...because our watch was taken away...and also our torchlight...just try to imagine...and the funny part is that.. the watch there always shows at 9 oclock...quite funny when...a friend asks...hey Hadri ,"Whats the time now"? Nine.

We then had to do some outdoor activities were will push our stamina to the limits... we started off with our morning exercise and thye worst part... we forgot our Fish which was given to us at the briefing...itwas one of our respnsibilities which were given to us to take care of those things.. and we were punished...We were told to do The Kuih Gulung.if i want to know the kuih gulung is done by rolling ur self several times lying on the ground..which in our condition...The beach.... my god... all of us just finished changing our clothes...and it was all in vain.. almost wanted to cry...fuuh....then one of the best moments when we did an activity called The Holy Rod...for the first time i managed to crawl through a barbed wire,as u can see up there... i was reaaly exhausted that day.....then at night we held a talent nite where we had to sing, dance,act,and becoming a poet..

at the last day.. we all were sad to leave the camp because.. we learnt a lot of new things...and in the end... we won almost all of the challenges throughout the camp..a lot of people found their true self such as My SSp for Group Two... Mark Ding Wan... he changed A lot i tell u...he from a silent person became a joker...which we all were very surprised...i couldnt forget the facilitators which have guided me.. especially Cikgu Ishaq He was also an Old Thomian Which Graduated In The Year 2004..He was the one who punished us an also guided us in our activities..we even became best friends... he also invited me to come again and be one of the in training facilitators and played bowling....i thank him for that...i hope to go there again one day.. we went there feeling very sorrow... and exhausted...just hope we can spend more time there...

i think that is all.. ill be writing more soon...If i have the time... so...Tally Ho!...

Quotes From Tendou Souji

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Walking the path of heaven, the man who will rule everything.
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Make the world revolve around you. It's more fun to think that way.
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When people love others, they become weaker, but it is nothing to be ashamed of. True weakness lies elsewhere.
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When not close by, one is even closer.
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Chase two birds, and you catch two birds.
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People who steal things, lose something even more important.
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It is enjoyable to eat something delicious, but the greatest joy is the time spent waiting for it.
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If you wish it to be so, luck will always be on your side.
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Flowers can make any girl glow.
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All girls are equally beautiful.
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A knife can only bring happiness when used in cooking.
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Fancy flavors cannot hide poor cooking.
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It is fun to add a secret flavor so that no one knows. But... it's more fun to find it.
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The whisper of the devil can sometimes sound like an angel's voice.
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One that drowns in oneself will eventually fall to darkness.
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Even if the world were full of enemies, there is someone you must protect.
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If you receive a little kindness, give them a large serving.
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Imitating others is not bad, for it is to recognize ourselves.
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Once you know the real thing... you won't be fooled by an imitation.
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Children are treasures. The greatest sin in this world is to damage those treasures.
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During meals an angel descends, for it is a sacred time.
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There are two things men must not do. One is to not make girls cry...The other is to not handle food crudely!
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The sun is wonderful, it can make even the dirt shine.
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Life is a long path to a goal. Drop your heavy luggage and enjoy walking with your hands empty.
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Men must be cool. Boiling water is but vapor.
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The wishes of the children are the future reality...Adults that laugh at such dreams are no longer human.
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A bond is a deep connection that cannot be broken. Even if apart, heart and heart are connected.
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My evolution is faster than the light. Nothing in the whole universe can keep up with my evolution.

hmmm at last.....a prefect....

hah ... i was only chosen as an emcee and was transferred in group three ..whre there was me,haziq and nazmi...hahaha we wouldnt stop laughing when carrying out our duties.....my sp's are kelvin and ian....and my SSP... which we call Super Senior Prefect...(hahahahahha!)is none of other my friend John Mark.... i just finished making my blazer and unfortunately the colour was too blue...it was like the st mary's blazer ...haha... like my friend zainudin used to say..."What A DRAGGG".....

All The Work Paid Off In The End.. But Without The Seniors I Wouldnt Reach The Top..Thanks To You All...

My probation ended at the 6th of july 2009 when My KP,Yeo Sze Kai announced that we were all chosen to be in the prefectorial board of SMK. ST. Thomas ... we were thrille by the announcement while there are some who coldnt accept the fact that they are in the board...at the Annual Group Meeting Done By the Prefects, we were briefed on the forms and actions that need to be taken.. when being a full fledged prefect... we then ended the meeting by greet the seniors to have a happy retirement as a prefect of St Thomas...my eyes was almost bursting into tears but as a man, tears shows pathethicness...so i did let even one tear fell from my cheeks..i just want to say that thank you so much for guiding us through the months and HAPPY RETIREMENT TO YOU ALL AND BEST OF LUCK FOR UR STUDIES...LONG LIVE ST THOMAS!!!!!!!!!!!

Again And Again And Again.. Just Like A Circle...

Ladies and gentlemen...why do always judge people...???that question must be running through mind now...occasionally.. we judge people through their look... but the saying dont judge A book by its cover must be compromised because people dont look what they MEANT TOBE.. BUT MOST OF THE PEOPLE....ESPECIALLY FRIENDS...They tend to judge by our wrongdoings....